In the wonderland.

This is absolutely insane.

I can't believe that it's almost 2009. So much has happened this year and it's hard to sit here and remember just how much has gone by.

2008 sped by and I'm a bit disappointed that it was over. I mean, there were the tough things--namely, mom's chemotherapy and all that--but there's a lot of good, too, and I'm sad because it feels almost like I'm leaving it behind.

Before 2009 comes, can I quickly rewind and relive some of it?

Maybe I could brave the pit and watch the Underneath's set at Taste of Chaos then...haha! Or convince my team to not abandon me right before it so I wouldn't have to get beat up in order to watch tU play. Well, at least I was able to enjoy MUCC and D'espairsRay. I don't want to imagine how the show would have been from anywhere else in the audience. For my first Jrock show, it was absolutely fantastic to be right up in the front like that. Even if it later resulted in bruises.

I'm still shocked at how behaved the crowd at the Seattle Dir en grey show was. Everyone was nice, I had a lot of fun.

That being said, I'm glad I didn't go alone, anyway. Lol. 'cause that would have been pretty...uncool. I don't like the idea of being in Seattle alone at night. Haha~

Anyway,
I'm so incredibly sick of having nothing to do. I'm doing everything I can to keep myself from being totally bored. Mostly, I've been hanging around on Furcadia and chatting with my lovely dears on Skype [which is always pretty damn amazing].

I'm really hoping I can get something productive to do soon. Lately, I've been wanting to write but I have no ideas as far as fiction writing goes and I don't have anything lined up to write for JRR...so I'm just not doing anything at all.

It sucks to have nothing to do on break.

I don't even know if I can take next quarter. :/ I think the financial aid site for Olympic College is still down and if I don't know for sure that I am getting aid, there's no way I can swing next quarter. We don't have the money to pay for college.

Oh. Speaking of.
I looked up my grades today and I'm really confused and disappointed. I got a 4.0 [out of 4.0] in Creative Writing, which I don't give a damn about. He doesn't even know who I am so all he has to grade me off of is the fact that I turned in a manuscript and he graded me while I read it...that's it. I received a 3.7 in Social Deviance, which is fine. I'm glad for that and I earned it.

But my ASL [American Sign Language] grade doesn't make sense to me. At all. I worked harder in that class than my other two classes and it was my favorite class. She was the teacher who always said "Oh, you need a challenge" to me, I assume because I had things down well.

But I got a 1.0 in ASL. Out of 4.0.

What?

Seriously?

Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do about it. :/ She doesn't really seem to answer e-mails from what I've heard and even if I did e-mail her, I don't think it would change anything. I just don't understand it and I really am very disappointed.

I guess if I can manage to pay for next quarter, I'll have to work even harder if what I was doing wasn't enough. :/ At least I earned all of my credits. Better than nothing, huh?

Well, anyway...
I think I'm going to throw Buffy in and watch it so I can send it back out tomorrow. Not that it matters. My parents have movies coming in before my next season comes up in the queue on Netflix. Damn.

I hope :koori-ookami: and her mom got back home safely. :/ It's really crappy outside and I worry about everyone all the time. Hopefully she'll get on later so I can stop fretting...

Off I go.
Loves, people.
<382.
~Kia.

望まなければ　何も，起こらない。